Tennessee-Mom

Fall is my favorite time of year. I love the cold days and cold nights. I wish it could stay this way all year. The leaves are beautiful, even that annoying ivy on the front of the house we’ve been trying to kill all summer is a gorgeous shade of orange.

My little man is getting better, though he is still in pain. He had all sorts of thick green stuff coming out of his ear this morning, but it’s clear liquid now. Luckily I haven’t had to give him any kind of medicine today. It’s weird but I’m normally one not to do anything about a fever unless it obviously is causing a lot of discomfort, which his was. but I hated giving him Motrin, I’m terrified of damaging his liver. But he’s ok now.

He slept pretty good last night too. No all night nursing marathons. Normally it’s just DS and I, but at some point last night DH and DD crawled into bed with us. It was nice and toasty under the covers! My three favorite people in the world, and isn’t my DH a cutie? And he’s a great dad too. Our kids are so lucky to have us as parents

After 3 sleepless nights for me, DS woke up with ear drainage stains all over his side of the bed and a smile. He’s finally a bit better, he holds his hand over that ear and says “ouch hurt” but its so much better then him screaming in pain. He has a very low fever but is so far acting OK. The past 2 days when his fever meds wore off and his fever starting to go back up, he would get pale, weak, and drink tons of water and nurse constantly.

His constant nursing has increased my milk supply so I can feed a small army again

I went to the doctor and got some Ambien and Lunesta for myself. I needed it! I finally got a deep sleep and i feel great.

Yesterday DD’s school had a huge fundraiser called Eagle Run, where the kids run laps, and there were lots of activities to do. DH took off from work and the 3 of us went to DD’s school. We got there at lunch time and spent most of the day with her. DS was getting grumpy so we went home and DH stayed the rest of the day with her.

I bought her a Laptop Lunch system. I have mixed feelings about that product. The insulated case is nice, but when I got the package and opened it, the “rubber tire” smell was horrible. Even now 3 weeks after having it, I can still smell it. I emailed the Laptop Lunch people and they never replied to my email about the smell problem.

Ds hasn’t been improving at all, in fact he seemed to be even worse today. He just stayed in bed shivering, would drink water, nurse a bit, but just didn’t move around. I called the doctor and we brought him back in tonight, and his temp was 105.3.

Everyone there sprang into action, which included taking blood to see what kind of infection he has so they know how to treat it. They tried to get blood from his left arm but couldn’t. So they went to the right. And then they didn’t get enough for their test so they had to prick his fingers.

god almighty.

if believing in god will get his screams out of my head then I will find a way to believe in a god, any god.

I don’t know how this didn’t effect my husband (he stopped at the dr’s on his way home from work) but having to hold my baby down while he’s screaming and crying “momma momma, here momma” and looking at me with his “why aren’t you helping me?” look in his eyes, I just did something to my very soul. I couldn’t stop crying. He was just screaming “ouch ouch” and “momma momma bay-boo” (bay-boo is his way of saying he wants to nurse) and all I wanted to do was snatch him off the table and scream “stop hurting my baby!” and run away with him.

I can’t get his screams for me out of my head.

update: the dr called me at 8.35pm and told me that his white blood cell count was within normal range so she’s pretty sure that it’s not a bacterial infection. We have to wait a day or 2 for the other test to come in. she is so wonderful calling me this late at night!