Tennessee-Mom

I had a very bad mom day yesterday.  I was at the point of thinking that if I took every single RX I had I could just end it all.  Surely my kids would be better off without a crazy woman for a mom.  But common sense took over, and I remembered that it’s been 2 days since I took my anti-depressants.   I forgot to take them.  But damnit, I shouldn’t be so nuts that if I forget to take my med’s for 2 days that I turn into crazy bitch from hell.  Hum, written down I do look crazy.  I think I need to talk to the Dr again, perhaps a change in meds or something is in order.

But anyway, I bent down to pick something up and WAM!!!  I hit my eye socket on the corner of the window.  The pain lasted for a few minutes then went away.  Went to bed, woke up and my eye was glued shut or something.  Now I look like this:

 

 

 

 

All I wanted to do was forget yesterday happened, apologize all day to my kids for being crazy yesterday, and now I look like ive been in a barfight.  I really really hope no bruising shows up in time for christmas!!  I’m such a fuck up.  sometimes i think my kids deserve so much  better then me. 

… like a mom who has been in the house all week (and up most of each night) with two small sick kids and is now sick herself…. and wishes her DH would at least do a load of fucking laundry, or at least attempt to put away the clean laundry instead of waiting for it all to magically get clean and put itself away. 

I was in hell-mart the other day, and i could hear a dozen people coughing a deep congested sounding cough.  “eww, I hope my kids don’t get that” I thought.  sure enough both of them got fevers, stuffy noses and congested coughs last night.  They are both a little warm today, both coughing, but acting ok.  I kept DD home from school.  At least they both got sick at the same time.  Unfortunately, they are both also coughing and sneezing on me.  It’s gross.  I don’t like being around sick people, even if they are my kids.  I’m not sick.. yet.  Please don’t let me get sick.  I don’t want to get sick.

I upgraded my husbands phone for a christmas present.  Upgraded mine while I was at it.  My big elaborate plan was on christmas eve night after he went to bed was to take the card in his current phone and put it in the new one, then on christmas morning, call his new phone and he would be surprised, open it and think i was the coolest wife ever.  But…. the dingbats at t-moblie text messaged DH with “thanks for upgrading!!” and he called me wanting to know what was going on. so I had to tell him.  oh well, at least we get our new phones today and don’t have to wait until christmas!